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a tribute by lyn lifshin:

MICHAEL MCNEILLEY'S SITUATIONAL REALITY

What I like about Michael McNeilley's Situational Reality is the way the poems move from clear, direct narratives to a more mysterious, dream like surprise. Then, like the school psychologist, in the poem The school psychologist in late spring,"who drifts over the world below, watching things from a different, unique angle, seeing "kites soar up and back, dancing over the beach," the poems, like the kites, are pulled back to earth again. I like that mix of this world and something else, something mysterious, magical, weird. I admire the pared down, understated and strong feelings in poems like "swing low" where a man casually walks up in new hiking boots to a hill, drinks wine, listens to cassettes and throws them into the bushes before "finding nothing left undone/ having found nothing worth dying for," he swings out. Beautifully intense but never overstated;" true feeling in check. That same restrained emotion in a pared down style is in so many poems: in "Dinner," and another favorite poem "Carnate;" a poem that powerfully suggests an intense passage, never telling too much, letting the reader drift into the words and feelings all the more deeply.

The ambivalence of love and longing ("Cursive," is one of my favorites. the woman's handwriting triggering a daydream, a "pull of sun through autumn leaves" (so many dark poems always have sun and light in them) back to the handwriting in the end) is in many of the poems. McNeilley blends the dregs and joys of ordinary days, the most ordinary things: "catfood cans, a Jack LaLane program," with the mysteriousness of moments when "we move through the house, pull down the night/ together without touching." The beautiful love poem "for grace" where "light upon the water paints a line of green...I write this with my tongue upon your thigh," is another favorite. Small moments, intense and riveting. I like a lot of the car poems. Sometimes cars resemble relationships;" burning, melting and a lot of trouble. Sometimes the people in this collection hitch away or toward the speaker, leave "little whirling dust devils in the dry leaves by the side of the road in the silence where you stood." And in the strong poem, "Control" the car holds the speaker like his life

McNeilley's poems feel true. The ones where nothing works quite right, where "things kept breaking" as well as the ones that celebrate the moment. One of my favorites is "the material equivalent of tranquility" where the mix of light and darkness in many of the poems is in the images of "silver water..bright in deepened darkness." I like the humor in many poems. "How I got to sleep with the beautiful celebrity" moves nicely and amusingly from remembering a school kid writing to Nikita Kruschev about studying rocks to "another chance encounter but otherwise strangely similar I suppose in the mind of the famous actress for the once that counted..." His characters are always interesting: the art historian, longing for someone to "paint a line of pearls ..past the navel" or Billy "on the roof, throwing paper airplanes." A fascinating collection;" nothing sugar coated or phony. In another favorite poem, "Roll," the speaker, in a wheel chair, finds adults are suspicious, uncomfortable but "the kids are better...see in me a grownup who will meet their eyes." Even in the darker poems, there is a sense that "hope lies waiting" and "this is not so bad after all."


 

BAD NEWS

the news too early
the no he won't
have bypass won't
get that hamburg
he won't, bad
sad news and tho
it was only on E mail,
not even the phone
I don't think,
a hole in the air,
another summer
losing its green.
Sunday was a plane
feather its engine
before it plunged.
On the metro
I think of his son
I never met, his
new love. When I
ran aol, when I was
flipping thru my
snail mail address
book to find a place
to send a card, just
wish luck, E mail
flashed the dark
note I never
wanted, she never
wanted and it was
11:20 I sent it,
probably close to the
time. No one knows
anything more,
except what we
never wanted to


SOME DAYS LIKE KAVA

numbing, not
a high but more
a nothingness, a day
without light
but no thunder. Ropes
of black sand
dissolve. What matters,
just out of reach,
figures on the shore
those refugees, leaving,
tied ribbons to as
the boat pulled out,
the bright strips
fluttering on the green
waves, then
disappearing


Rhinestones on spider webs

too many bad
poems to read
in the mail

the light
stains lint

of purple lips.

Cracked Fiesta Ware
in the cupboard,


black birds, crows

the deep blue
edge of the water

the blue blues

gone, so lonesome


roses and crows

another grey no
light Tuesday the
cat won't eat

I think of people
missing

for good, weeks,
no hours like

Night Blooming Cereus,
Queen of the night

leaving like a
long silk dress

blooms once

wind of lily of the
valley, vanilla

you get a rush of honey
suckle, desert smells

then its gone



SOME THURSDAYS EVEN IN JULY

all day's black as
old 78's and
as fragile. All
north and icy.
Costal reefs with
rhinestone crystals,
Some days even
before geese
grow back feathers,
do circles around
the pond getting
ready. Loss, like
a needle on the
compass keeps
pointing the
same way while
the cat slinks from
the hypodermic
and anything easy
dissolves like
cinnamon sugar
on a plate under the
faucet

    JULY 19

the cat won't eat
any of the three
tins I open

slinks under
the bed doesn't

want her
shot

it's grey

too many people
missing

     take a deep
breath

do what I
can: get dressed,
      go to ballet
      pick up different cat food

try as I never did
when my mother used to say
"Honey, aren't you
glad I'm still here
to be high on
what is


JULY 19

Crows and yellow
birds. Grey, grey,
except for the roses,
Running late because
there was too much
time, I put my hair
up before ballet on
the subway, I could
meditate but instead
I want to figure how
I'll get to the grocery
store, the drug store.
I'm doing this ballet
class to relax I try
to remember. I should
be watching the jade
branches, the peach
and guava streaks
in the sky before
the train goes
underground


JULY 19

Like the cat on
a lake of quilt.
Pond blue,
sky blue. May
be when I get
back she'll eat,
maybe she won't.
Maybe she'll
get to be 20.
Maybe she'll eat
some more
potassium and
leap to the bed.
Maybe she's
dreaming. Maybe
I'm dreaming



JULY 19

cherry pits tossed
into the azalea the
way some Indian
women buried dead
children under the
floor, hoping the
spirit will be reborn,
actually come back
to the mother in
the flesh. I wouldn't
put my cat there.
I don't have my
mother's ashes or
any lover's ring or
bone but what
shouldn't have
dissolved, a friend
who should be
smelling rain in the
air, carnations and
roses, will stay
here, in this poem


JULY 19

running late,
I forget off hours
how slow Metro
is, take a deep
breath, think of
the yellow birds
in the tree with
no name, how I
left the cat
purring on the
blue quilt she
doesn't still
jump to. Smell
or roses, damp
wind. Think of
lilac wind, smell
of trees, of gardens
of marigolds and
purple lettuce,
sun on skin
and not how long
it is taking the
damn train to
start



3 days later

the cat won't eat,
turns her back on
white fish, sardines.
In human life she's
140 I think. In
six weeks she's
become wise to my
grabbing her for
insulin, fur pulled
into a clump. Other
Julys, my grand
mother watched
yellow roses in the
moon. We got her
worry beads. I wish
I'd found them.
Grey, the only light,
yellow birds I've
never seen before,
small loud suns.
Locust, willows,
arcantha. Then,
suddenly the cat who
turned her back on
everything, on
me is purring wildly,
wanting chicken,
dry food, my skin,
peaches, even beets.


lyn lifshin

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